Disappointments are a pain

It's been 6 months since my last post. Have been rather busy as of late. My passion to blog have gone a little weary. Yet, today, I had the urge to pour out my heart.

Disappointments seem to be blocking me from achieving happiness. I have always trusted people, in fact, I trust them too much. As a result, I offer them  a plethora of love, care and grace. Yet, they don't seem to feel it or appreciate it. Instead, they trust other people and work with them unconsciously, against you. 

My whole world crashed down to discover that the person I trusted and loved has disappointed me. Shouldn't they trust me instead?  Why won't they stand by my side for my sake? Why am I being pushed away to the corner of isolation? What have I done wrong? 

I've never felt such harsh betrayal in my entire life. Then it struck me. I can't control them. But, I can control my reactions and my feelings. And I can control my actions. I will stop trying too hard and guard my heart to protect myself from harm.