I was extremely happy in the morning. Everything seemed to go really well with work and packing. Once evening came, things started to be rocky. I was having issues, easily offended and emotional. I could only hear the words 'blame' and 'isolation'. I just wasn't happy with the way I was being treated. I felt unfair treatment and ranking discrimination.
I couldn't take it anymore. Yet, God was telling me to forgive and to say sorry. Yep I apologized ... nevertheless, my heart still feels heavy. My heart has a huge weight stepping on it. I feel crushed, isolated and depressed. This is definitely not the kind of life I wanted.
I have never been emotional. I always had a sweet spirit and was always calm, cheerful and happy go lucky. Things have changed. The issues have changed everything. The different incidents have changed my personality. I just don't feel 'me' anymore. I want to return to being the 'old me'. I need to escape all these issues and avoid people who are causing these issues. This is turning into a big nightmare, turning me into a person that I'm not.
I miss 'The Old Me'. I'm trying to be as strong as I can. Why can't things return to the way it was before? I need to honestly read my Bible and Pray. The only solution is running to God and finding comfort in HIM and finding the solutions to my problems ......
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